And then there was a magical full moon…

16.03.2014 | 18:50pm | Full moon rising over the Toronean Gulf
16.03.2014 | 18:50pm | Full moon rising over the Toronean Gulf

 

Hello my dear friends ๐Ÿ™‚ (long post below, if you intent to read it better grab a cup of tea or coffee :p)

ย  As you probably already know, i’m facing a serious standstill in my life at the moment. Being stuck at my parents house, in a little village with no inspiring environment and grumpy people all around, i’m just feeling my creativity and life-force being drained out of me. In my try to keep a positive outlook, i made my first bookย Visions, i’m working on some videos that i’ll share with you soon, i try to shoot something every day and view things with a different eye but you know sometimes it’s just really hard to believe that things will somehow get better, when nothing seems to be changing. I must admit i was quite depressed these days…until i saw that moon…

ย  It might not be a great photo, the colors are a bit exaggerated but this is how i perceived this moment. I climbed at the construction site next to my house and waited…The moon started to rise at 18:35pm. I have never witnessed the moon rising over the sea and i must say, i was blown away…In this photo the moon was already higher, the lower view was not so great as all you could see is ugly houses and rooftops with antennas. I wanted to keep it minimal and focus on what i actually saw and ignored all the surroundings.

ย  This was a magical moment for me, a wake up call. Seeing this filled me up with power, beauty and hope that soon enough i’ll be able to view new landscapes and fill my eyes and my heart with new images, people and places…I don’t know when or how i can make this happen but i know it will happen…If i have to be real with you, it really pisses me off that i can’t post any new photos when i have such a hunger to create and explore new places. If you could just put me in a new environment with just my camera, i’d be in paradise. It’s crazy but this standstill is actually a blessing in a way, cause i realized my great need to evolve and create. Now, i just have to get out of this place and i’ll be really happy! I really can’t stand negative people and especially those who love their misery and don’t want anyone around to be happy.

ย  Not much is being said about Greece and the economic crisis anymore, things are getting better they say but no one is mentioning the mentality of the people here. It’s just tragic to see the youth have no dreams, to do nothing because we have a crisis anyway, what is the point of trying, right? Not everyone is like that but i think it’s safe to say that an 80% is totally apathetic and negative. And i experienced that very well with the launch of my book…The only positive comments i have gotten were from foreign people, who actually view that creating a book is an achievement and something to be proud of. The comments i have gotten from Greek people and followers that previously enjoyed my work are of this kind “why would you even bother to make this?”, “like anyone is going to buy it”, “who do you think you are and you make a book?”…I mean seriously? Why so much animosity? I would be happy for anyone who made something that they are proud of! Even if this is not the greatest book on the planet, it’s a piece of me and my development as an artist. My next book will be better, i know that but does that mean that my first book should never exist? I don’t think so…That kind of mentality is the source of why no one is actually doing anything here and exactly because they don’t dare, they attack the people who do act and follow their dreams. Just ignore them…

ย  Closing this rant, i owe a big thank you to the lovely people who purchased my book and gave me an extra reason to smile and try to work through this negative phase, so thank you ๐Ÿ˜€ Your personalized thank you notes will be on the way very soon. And to anyone out there who is feeling down, focus on the small wonders that happen around us everyday, focus on the few people around you that make you feel better, hang in there and things will get better ๐Ÿ˜€ The important thing is to move forward, even with baby steps, even with pauses but just keep moving…Don’t allow yourself to stop dreaming, don’t lose your passion no matter what happens around. Life can be so beautiful, if only you want to experience the beauty…

Yours,

Alex โ€œV-Lightโ€

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14 thoughts on “And then there was a magical full moon…

    1. ๐Ÿ™‚ Thank you for your comment. I do follow this rule in almost all my shots, i concentrate on that i felt and how magnificent the view was in my eyes. I didn’t plan on writing all this, it just came out and i guess i needed to get it out of my system ๐Ÿ™‚ I do feel better already, i hope i didn’t depress anyone else although i tried to point out the positives in my post.

  1. They say that misery loves company – and this seems the case here. I think that the “why bother” comments are more telling about the people who are saying it rather than a reflection on the merits of your work – perhaps it is a bit of jealousy in realizing that your ARE doing something. Just think of all the great vision changing artists and the derision their art received from their contemporaries who were unwilling or unable to think outside the norm. Hang in there, stay the course and use the negativity as the fuel that propels you forward. All the best to you Alex.

    1. Thank you for the kind comment Robert! You know i always appreciate your input! It wasn’t my intention to write all this down, it just came out spontaneously, i guess i had to get it out of me. I never really cared about what other people think of me but i also cannot comprehend why they just can’t be happy with other peoples happiness. I see that a lot, not only towards me. Well anyway, i just want to make so many things and it drives me crazy that i can’t because i’m trapped in this situation. If in a month or two, things are still the same then i’ll have to take some really serious action because i’m not staying in this zombie town any longer…I need to keep my sanity :p

    1. I did and i still do! I need that change very badly. It’s just that things haven’t changed all this time, i didn’t get some jobs that i was counting on and i don’t even have the money for a ticket at the moment. Moving does require a fair amount of money…that’s why i lost my hope for a moment, seeing that i don’t see any way to gather this amount of money…but i want to believe that somehow i can make it…and soon ๐Ÿ™‚

      1. Aaw! Always the money! That’s a pitty! Perhaps you are able to get a payed photographers job to earn the money! I believe that you will get this chance! ๐Ÿ˜‰
        Best would be for sure to get a job in Austria directly… I keep my fingers crossed for you! ๐Ÿ™‚

    1. Glad that you think so Kongo…I certainly don’t want to sound like i’m complaining all the time and this post was honestly not planned. I just wanted to write a short description of how i felt when i saw that moon and then i couldn’t stop writing. I hope at least that my post does give out a positive outlook, i think being positive and moving forward are very important. Breakdowns and setbacks are in the menu but the point is to get over them ๐Ÿ™‚ I also wanted to state how something that we do see quite often, like the moon can have a big impact to our mentality if we are open into seeing and feeling all it’s magnificence ๐Ÿ˜€

    1. I would think so too but the surprising thing was that these comments came from photographers that are more established than me and people who previously liked and supported my work… I guess i was not a threat back then cause i was just the crazy lady shooting landscapes but now i made a book god forbid and i might just get rich and famous…hahaha…I just don’t know what to think about all this…I find it quite ridiculous…and the funny thing would be to see all these people making a book now…hahaha. Well anyway, thank you for your wish Mitza ๐Ÿ˜€ Have lovely day!

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